In La La Land

I'm currently saving money to go into Shatec...Really interested in pastry & baking...Instead of following my heart a few years ago, I went into hairstyling...Sometimes I feel like kicking myself for being so silly. Time has been wasted. I can't afford to waste any now! Hitting 20 soon. I feel so old! I aim to have a career before i hit 24. It's a must! I don't want to be old, jobless, useless, moneyless or anythingless la...haha... I want to help my future husband pay half the household bills, have my own savings & go on vacations with him , pay everything myself, don't want his money...only his love :)
Though I love money...I think it is evil. It is the root of most fights. How I wish this world was different. Where everyone smiles at each other, where there are no senior citizen working as cleaners ( i really pity them), where there is no such thing as money... I'm talking bout a stress free world here, where there is no such word as stress in the dictionary...IF ONLY
I'm actully felling very stressed out lately. Having lots of thoughts about the future. I hid it so well haha... Even my friend of 7 years can't see it...
Ouh ya... My friend is gonna get engaged soon...She's stressed out too...Mostly about money
I think my other friend is gonna get married pretty soon too...Hmm...MONEY

It's 5:30 am...My eyes hurts...Ouch! Gotta sleep now... Going out with Natasha & Fila in the afternoon :) Can't wait